worst feelings in the world:
- needing to throw up but having nothing in your system to do it with
- knowing you can't compete with someone... you're simply not good enough
- heavy eyes but a racing mind that won't let you sleep

sometimes i have all of the self-confidence in the world and sometimes i want to crawl under my comforter and sleep until the year 2056. it's unfortunate that i'm having trouble sleeping at all.

i have to wake up in three hours to get ready for chicago. i was looking forward to going home so much but with each minute that passes, i'm dreading it a little more.

i need to stop getting like this so late at night.