johnny cupcakes is going to be in chicago on saturday but i am volunteering at the film fest.  

things are ok these days.  i'm working on becoming a complete meathead.  almost there.

to add to the list of "worst feelings in the world":

- paying $30 for a ticket that is only supposed to cost $16.

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tonight i am going to listen to the ltj discography and drink vampire wine.  tomorrow i am going to see one of my best friends because she is awesome and flying to chicago to see me.

i really do have a few spectacular friends who make up for all of the shitty acquaintances. 

every day gets a little bit easier.  every day gets a little more lonely.  it's funny how everything works itself out.

hilary flies into town on sunday for a two day road trip and singalongs.  i need good hugs and i need to feel like myself again.  watch out, world!  the east coast version of myself reappears for the second time in 2009 come sunday morning.

today was a relatively good day.  of course it's now, at 2:04am that i'm back to thinking/analyzing in a valiant effort to figure out exactly where i messed things up for whatever this non-relationship was.